... MY crazY head ...

today, i woke up at five forty*five... i got ready... woke my brother up... i drove to the beach, and we ran =D =D =D ... damn, i forgot how hard it was to run on the sand... ha... and my left ankle kept hurting for some reason... i was like dangit... i didn't run as much as i thought i would, but we walked a lot too... it's hard to walk in the sand too!... goodness gracious... great balls of fire... i was all out of breath... bleh... i haven't been to the beach in a long time... i must say that the weather was great!... the sun was out, but it wasn't too hot... it wasn't cold... there was a tiny little breeze... the waves were looking good (ha, i don't really know, but there were a lot of surfers out there so it must've been good =P)... it was perfect... there were a lot of people out there!... it was crazy... i didn't expect so many people to be up at six... i was seriously AMAZED (ha... it amazes me every time!... hi, lorna*caca!) at how nice the weather was... seriously... i hope it's like that again when we go wednesday... my brother agreed to go with me before school... isn't that nice of him?... and i have work too... but i can go in later... so it's all good... so i've done a lot this morning... all before noon... that's crazy... i came home and took a shower... and i washed the dishes... and i ate breakfast... and i did my laundry... that's like a whole days work =P ... well, no... but yeah... ha... oh!... we saw a dead baby seal on the way back to the car =O( ... it was weird 'cause we saw a dead seagull on the way back too... and we didn't see them when we were running or walking... but it was sad... the seal was just a baby... it was little... and who cares about the seagull... "mine, mine, mine, mine, mine..." i hate seagulls... bleh... hee hee =P ... but yeah... i MIGHT have to go into work today... but not to work... ha... 'cause my sister has to do the billing for central supply... and she needs to look at the discharge files of the residents who already left or passed away... and those files are in our office... and i have a key to the office... and arceli isn't working today 'cause of memorial day... and i don't think any of the other managers are working, so... i MIGHT be stuck going just to let her in... hopefully it doesn't take too long if i have to go... i mean, i don't really mind going in... i'm not doing much today... me and my brother might go to the mall later... and i might suprise him by going to sportmart TODAY instead of when i get paid next and buying him his scooter... and i'm gonna buy a football too... so that when me and him go to the beach we could play catch =D ... OH... MY... GOSH!... what is wrong with the filipino channel???... this girl is dressed in a mermaid outfit (well, all of the girls are), and she's singing alanis morisette's ironic... and then the other girls that are just there for decoration were sitting on the stage like singing along with her... it was just stupid... trust me... i really don't like the filipino channel... i don't hate my culture or anything... but having this damn channel on ALL the time just bugs the shit out of me... ugh... turn it off!!!... i'm gonna go deaf... all it is, is people who think they can sing... and game shows with half naked girls in the background doing the same dance move over and over and over and over and over and over and over (get it?) again... goodness gracious... tell them to stop!... yeah, whatever... call me a hater... but i just can't stand it... that's all... but yeah... on a happier note, lorna*caca gets to come home tomorrow!!!... yay... i haven't seen her in a long long long time... and then soon, she gets to finally SEE the love of her life =P ... awww... awww... awww... and be with him... and spend time with him... and get to know him better... awww... awww... awww... he sent me a message on myspace... and then i sent him one back telling him that if he hurts my lorna*caca, i'll be hurting him =D ... hee hee... it's true... i'll break him... 'cause no one in this entire world deserves to be loved and feel loved more than lorna... she's seriously the greatest best friend anyone could ever ask for... there's no one else like her... =D i love you, caca! =D ... i love you, too, baby*cakes... poopie*doopie*doo... sugar*pants (=P actually, that's one of his names for me =P)... my little bunny rabbit, i love you!... forever and ever and ever and ever... i love you, max... hee hee... well, this looks like a good place to end... end happy =D ... mmmwah!...

babe shaved his head tonight =D ... hee hee... i can actually see him now... ha... no, but seriously... it was always in his face... and i would always have to move his hair out of the way... but yeah... i could've shaved it, but nooo... let's go spend fourteen dollars for someone else to shave it... whatever, babe... ha... just kidding, sweetie*pie... i love you!... so yeah... i'm just sitting here at babe's house... chillin'... waiting for him to get out of the shower... 'cause he felt hair down his back... oh... my... gosh... ha... * sigh *... i'm kinda tired... it's been a long day... kind of... HI, LORNA*CACA! =D =D =D ... i hope you're having fun all the way over there in FLOOR*EEE*DUH =P ... we should do something when you come back home to good ol' CAL*EEE*FOR*KNEE*UGH... since we're all pretty much out of school and all... oh... except for andrew... but it's okay... i'm sure he can still hang out... wouldn't that be funny if you didn't read this at all while you're over there?... and then when you come back and you do read it, it wouldn't even be relevant... AT ALL? ... yeah... but we all know you can't live without the internet... sooooo... =o) ... well, my baby's out of the shower now... and we'll be gettin' it on... ha ha ha ha ha... just kidding... i'm an anGEL... yup yup... bu*bye everyone... see ya latah!...

ugh... my eyes are itchy... bleh... i'll live... my whole plan of running the days i don't have work isn't working out too well... so far i've gone once... ha... and that was last saturday... BUT i am going later on today with my little brother... apparently there's some park with a track off of arneil... baby*cakes told me about it =D ... so i wanna go check that out... 'cause yeah... the best way to get rid of this fat on my sides is cardio... so that's what i'm gonna do... i remember when i ran like every other morning with my sister at the beach during the summer before senior year, i went back to ninety*five pounds... and my sides weren't all bleh anymore... it was great... but then senior year came, and i didn't do any exercise (except dance, but that doesn't really count), and i ate junk food all the time... yeah, that'll do it... plus, i've always wanted to go running and stuff, and i would start, but then i'd just end up quitting... so i wanna get into a routine, you know?... and circuit training is over, so i definitely need some form of exercise... and what's a better way to exercise and get into shape than running?... hmmm?... hmmm?... hmmm?... (ha ha... awww, babe... i miss you)... well yeah... gotta go get ready for my jog =D ... wish me luck, y'all... ha... "y'all"... hee hee... mmmwah!... i love you, maxwell =D ...

my throat hurts...

the words i want to be bold are NEVER bold... what's up with that?... it totally loses the effect i'm going for... but whatever... i'll live... build a bridge and get over it, right?... right... when we were chillin' at lorna's sunday, i told andrew how i went running that morning... and he's all cool, or something... and i was like, yeah, gonna get into shape... and he said, you already are in shape... and i had this look on my face like psh, no... and he was all, don't be so hard on yourself... and you know what?... i AM to hard on myself... like, why can't i just be happy with the way i am?... i always look at my flaws... and usually see the bad things about myself... i'm just really insecure... not just with my body... but just with myself in general... i dunno... bleh... i'll stop talking about this now... but yeah... gonna go straighten my hair...

BRAD PITT is the hottest, sexiest, most gorgeous man alive!... and jennifer aniston is the luckiest woman ever... the fight scenes were great... and brad was great in all his scenes... it was, wow... seriously... great stuff... EVERYONE GO WATCH TROY! =D =D =D ... but yeah... before the movie, me and my sister ate at hard rock cafe... i was just sitting there, drinking my agua... i look down, and what do you know?... there's a tiny little fly in there... i was so grossed out... why the hell didn't i see it in there before?... bleh... ugh... ick... GRRR*oss... so yeah... i got a new water... i wasn't a bitch about it or anything... i COULD'VE been... but i wasn't... 'cause i mean, come on now... there was a FLY in my water... that's just disgusting... but anyways... we ate our burgers... and then it was off to TROY... hee hee... just thinking about brad pitt makes me smile... * sigh *... but i won't ramble on and on again about brad... so after the movie, we watched the LAKER GAME... we sat on the floor with everyone else... it's exciting watching it with hundreds of other LAKER fans... imagine how it would be at the actual game... amazing... so much fun!... but yeah... yay LAKERS... 88-76... boo spurs... boo duncan... bleh... ha... but yeah... i didn't get back to camarillo until after eleven, close to eleven thirty... my sister dropped me off at the harley's bowling or whatever it's called... so i could meet up with lorna and everyone else... it was fun... the music ALWAYS makes me want to dance... and then it makes me what to hit the clubs already... i wanna go to one already, man... i have my outfit... and i love it... i love it... i love it... =D hee hee... after everyone bowled, we went to denny's... but it was way too crowded... so we went to ihop in oxnard... oh man... we were there until almost three thirty... i was so tired... 'cause i got up before six thirty that morning... and i was just pooped... so i slept before four... and i woke up to babe calling me at ten... i miss you baby... =O( ... * sigh *... but yeah... i don't wanna get all sad... so i'll talk about sunday... shopping day... ha ha... kind of... me, lorna, and annie went to the mall... we were gonna go to the strawberry festival, but then people kept talking about how crowded it was there, so it made me not want to go anymore... so to the mall it was =D ... i was only gonna buy a purse... but i ended up buying a green halter top thing from PAPAYA... it's my store... i love it there... that's where a majority of my clothes come from =D =D =D ... just ask anyone... my closet is full of papaya clothing... hee hee... but yeah... we stopped inside hot topic after we ate, and lorna and annie bought me this orange t*shirt with pebbles from the flinstones on it... and it said "baby got back"... ha ha ha... it was funny... thanks, guys... then at claire's i got these elastic head band things... a red one and a black one... oh!... and they had the non*metal hair ties... i've been looking for those... so i bought some... we were at the mall for a pretty long time... it didn't seem like it though... well, anyways... after the mall, we stopped by daniel's house to get some video games for annie's brother... and we decided to drag andrew out of the house since he was all alone... so the four of us went back to lorna's and just sat around... looked at infected vaginas and penises on line... ha ha... 'cause somehow we started talking about std's... like crabs and stuff... and andrew thought there was another name for crabs, so i told him to look on line... and the site he found had pictures of what they look like... it was SO bleh... i was like oh my gosh... and andrew was all freaked out... it was just gross... the captions were like "discharge from penis when you have chlamydia"... or somehting like that... when lorna was taking me home later that night, i was like, how could someone let their vagina be put on line?... i mean, i know people who see it won't know who's vagina or penis it is... but still!... i know those things happen to people, but it's embarrassing... i don't know if i spelled that right... ha ha... OH well... but yeah... i'm gonna go now... 'cause i'm tired... gonna take a nap and stuff... bu*bye!...

i did it!... i got up at six twenty*one this morning, and i got dressed... and i went RUNNING =D =D =D ... i thought i was gonna be so tempted to turn the alarm off... and i did... but i got up and stayed up =D ... yeah... i stood around for a while deciding if i should still go or not... it is BRIGHT at six thirty!... goodness gracious... well, after MINUTES of debating with myself, i stretched a little bit, and then i was off... hee hee... let me just say that running on the treadmill (did i spell that right?... yeah, i dunno) is SO much easier... (say that last sentence like chandler on F*R*I*E*N*D*S would =D ... "the hills are alive with the sound OF music" =P)... but yeah... either that, or i just wasn't used to breathing in all that cold air... my goodness... it like burns your lungs!... so i didn't run the whole time... i ran... and walked... and ran... i didn't go to the beach like i planned... all because my dad had my car... i forgot about that... silly me... i guess i could've waited til he got home from work, but that wouldn't have been until atleast two hours later... i would've just gotten tired and gone back to bed... or something... when i got back home, i did my crunches... and some other things from my magazine =D ... yup... i feel accomplished... any other saturday i would've been in bed watching F*R*I*E*N*D*S already =D ... yeah... babe says it's unhealthy to be watching F*R*I*E*N*D*S ALL the time... it's not ALL the time... it's just when i don't have anything to do... which, i guess, is a lot of the time... but still!... i heart F*R*I*E*N*D*S... the week of the season/series finale, i started watching my DVDs (starting with season one, of course... duh... why else would i start with any other season?... right?... right?... right!)... so yeah... and now i'm on disc two of season five... one might think that i'd get tired of watching so many episodes of F*R*I*E*N*D*S... but let me tell ya... this girlie*girl will NEVER get tired of watching THE greatest show ever... =D =D =D ... i can't wait til season eight comes out... it's gonna be great... i hope it comes out soon... i can't wait... i can't wait... but yeah... and yeah... i WAS going to do push ups after my crunches... that didn't happen... ha... yeah... i was just too pooped... so anyways... I WANT TO WATCH TROY ALREADY!... oh man... it's going to be a wonderful experience... to be watching THE most gorgeous man alive... and his ass... his body is all muscle... nice nice muscles... hot stuff, might i say =P ... and he's gonna be in a skirt for a majority of the movie... am i in heaven, or am i in heaven?... * sigh * ... but yeah... i better stop talking about brad... i'm starting to drool =P ... well, i'm gonna go straighten my hair now... have a good day today, everyone!... mmmwah!...
love, me =D

tomorrow, i am going running =D ... i was just gonna run around my neighborhood, but i decided to go to the beach... well, first i decided to go to the beach, but then i changed my mind and decided on running to the park, BUT THEN i changed my mind again... ha... yeah... gonna go maybe around seven... 'cause the sun is evil... just kidding, it's not evil... i just don't like being in the sun very much... that's all... but yeah... then, i'm gonna go home and take a shower and all that other good stuff... and then around twelve me and my sister are gonna go to city walk to watch my handsome brad in TROY... then watch the Laker game there... =D =D =D ... fun*filled day planned... i'm excited... la la la... i'm just waiting for lorna and annie to come... we're gonna watch mean girls tonight... ha... it looks funny... but yeah... hi, babe... i miss you... a lot... sorry i couldn't come up this weekend, baby =O( ... i really wanted to... i love you, poopie*doopie*doo!... mmmwah!...

SCHOOL'S OUT FOR SUMMER!... hee hee... school is over and done with... for now, atleast... but the point is, it's relaxing time... nothing to worry about until fall... oh you know what?... i just realized that i can sign up for my classes when i'm in the philippines... i forgot about the internet... ha... i was gonna have lorna sign up for me since we'll take the same classes... well, most of them... 'cause i want to take philosophy, and she does not... oh well... we can have all our other classes the same =D ... caca, we have to take speech some time... oh man... stupid speech... i can't stand talking in front of people... CAN'T STAND IT!... but yeah... what the hell am i doing talking about school?... it's over... ha... finally... oh, one last school-related thing... the human development final wasn't as bad as i thought it was gonna be... seriously, if i had used my time wisely after getting off work, i would've done a lot better... instead i wasted it trying to figure out what to wear and watching F*R*I*E*N*D*S =D =D =D ... ha... yeah, well... i think i did pretty good... atleast, i'd like to think so... like i was saying, if i used my time wisely, i would've had time to look over the last three chapters... the rest of it stuck with me pretty well... kinda surprising... but it did... but yeah... NOW i'm done talking about school...

i WAS gonna go running this morning... BUT i got home late last night... and then i talked on the phone with maxwell... so i didn't go to sleep til like almost two... so i've decided to start next week =D ... ha ha... running is seriously so good for you... like, whoa...

but yeah... i just did my brother's math homework, and it took off thirty dollars of what i owe him =D ... what are big sisters for? =P ... hee hee... well... i'm gonna go watch F*R*I*E*N*D*S now... bu*bye!...

drama, drama, drama... =P ... how to lose a guys in ten days... hee hee... grrreat movie... but seriously... some people can cause so much drama, it's not even funny... it seems that certain people, and names WILL go unmentioned, that i cause drama... ha... sure, i have drama in my life... but i don't think that i cause the drama... there's so much stuff that i wish i could type out, BUT it's in the best interest of certain people that i DON'T say anything... (baby, if you read this, and you wanna know, just ask me! =D ... i love you!!!... hee hee)... so yeah... i think some people just like to look at themselves like, oh look at me, i'm perfect... psh... PUH-lease... =P ... give me a break... give me a break... you know what?... just break me off a piece of that kit*kat bar... la la la... it's just interesting what people will say about you behind your back... strange that they say anything at all about it when it has nothing to do with them... well, i guess it kinda does... they're brought into it, so i guess it does have something to do with them... but it doesn't really really have to do with them... ha ha.. yeah... it's confusing when you don't know what the hell i'm talking about, huh?... i guess, it just bothers me 'cause if someone has a problem with me, then tell ME... NOT the rest of the world... this isn't high school, people... i mean, it wasn't like it was unexpected... i knew i wasn't gonna be certain people's favorite person, but like i said, if you have a problem with the way i am, well, then tell me to my face... i'm a big girl... i can handle it =D ... my cat's funny... she's a funny bunny =P ... no wait... that's babe... i love you my little bunny rabbit... i wish you could come home already... i can't wait to see you again, babe... it'll be great... but yeah... gotta go... my brother has to work on some school stuff... how fun for him... actually, i need to go study for human development... final tomorrow night!... eeek... ha... alright later... i'm off to cause some more drama =P ...

this is something that i typed out on lorna's blog like a year ago!... ha...

"i wrote a song =D ...

(to the tune of old goldfishies song :-P )
I LOVE MAXWELL 'CAUSE HE'S SO DELICIOUS...
GOTTA GO KISS HIM...
I CAN KISS HIM EVERY DAY...
AND I THINK THAT THAT'S OKAY :-D ...

THAT'S 'CAUSE MAXWELL HAS SEXY LIPS...
NOT GROSS ONES

the end =D"

babe came back today! =D ... and we hung out... but then he left again =O( ... 'cause he came back from arizona... and yeah... we hung out... but he had to leave at five... so i got to see him for not even two hours... but it's all good... i MIGHT go up to see him this friday... but i dunno... i don't really have money right now... =O/ ... maybe if i wasn't going to order off that magazine... ha... it's the last time... i promise =P ... but yeah... i think something's wrong with lorna... or something's on her mind... she kinda told me some stuff... but when i asked her about other things, it took her a long time to answer, and all she put was yeah i'm alright... but i don't think she is... and then i had to sign off aim 'cause my computer was being retarded... and when i came back i said hi... but then i looked again a little bit later, and she had signed off without saying anything... but yeah... jenny was over so they might've gone out to do something... so yeah...

maxwell, come home already! =P ... ha... you just left, babe... duh, gel... ha... baby, you still don't know the address to my journal!... ha ha... i'll have to tell you later tonight, babe... i've already been talking like you read this... <--- see... there i go again... i love you, babe!... i need to study for human development... yay... bleh... bu*bye!...

happy mama's day to all the mama's out there =D ... especially to MY mama =P ... we have LOTS AND LOTS AND LOTS of differences, but i love her... i really do... sometimes, things can seem unbearable... i was pretty pissed off at her for lying to me about how long i was staying in philippines... and i was just so upset... but i can't be mad at her for forever... it's just gonna be sad... 'cause i'm gonna be gone for like A MONTH!!!... i just have to look at the bright side... lots of cheap stuff which equals A LOT OF SHOPPING!... ha ha ha... yeah... well, i really shouldn't bring too much money... 'cause yeah... don't have that much... =P ... it's all good... but yeah... so, no matter how mad or pissed off i get at my mom, i still love her... i love her a lot... happy mother's day, mom...

wow, look at this!... ha... I DID IT ALL BY MYSELF!... woo*hoo... hee hee... i did the same thing to my myspace... i understood it... aren't you guys proud of me?... aren't cha?... aren't cha?... aren't cha???... hmmm?... ha... yeah... it's nothing special... i just wanted it to be simple and stuff... but yeah...

thursday night, my max FINALLY came home... FINALLY!... my goodness gracious, great balls of fire... we hadn't seen each other for T`H`R`E`E W`E`E`K`S... psh... uh-uh, not cool... it sucks a bunch of balls... but the point is, i finally got to see him... ha... i watched F*R*I*E*N*D*S with lorna and dorothy and annie earlier that night... two thumbs up!... hee hee... after the show was over i called my babe to see if he was home finally... and he was!... yay!!!... soooooooooooo... i left lorna's for babe's... i called him right when i got there, and he came outside... i saw him and jumped up to hug him and wrap my legs around him... hee hee... i'm his little monkey =P ... ha... but yeah... we just stayed like that for a while... savoring every moment... i didn't want to let go of him... i couldn't let go... all i wanted to do was hold on to him... for forever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever... (you get the point =P)... but yeah... it was just so good to be with him again... seriously... i miss him so much all the time... but when we see each other again, everything just falls back into place... it's all good... hee hee... anyways... we pretty much just hung out in his room the whole time... but yeah... the time went by really fast 'cause all of a sudden it was twelve already and time for me to go =O( ... i had to wake up early for work and all... and the sooner i got into work, the sooner i would get to be with him again... so yeah... i went home and fell asleep... it was great... i had babe's jacket to keep me warm... awww... the next day, i woke up to my alarm, but i was still tired so i got up to press snooze... but i guess i turned it off 'cause when i woke up again, it was already seven ten... dangit... so much for getting into work by eight... so, i took my shower and got dressed and stuff... had some yoplait strawberry yogurt... mmm... and finally left for work... i won't talk about work 'cause it's just work... i mean, i don't hate it, but nothing interesting to talk about... oh wait... well, during work i texted maxi*waxi and told him to just hang out with his friends until four 'cause i wanted to watch oprah at three... the F*R*I*E*N*D*S cast was on... it was an earlier taping... like the day before oprah had brad pitt on... i haven't seen it all yet 'cause i had to go pick up my brother... but yeah... so that's what i did after work... i called babe before oprah was over 'cause the whole thing wasn't on F*R*I*E*N*D*S... so i went over and we just hung out and stuff before we went to the movies... babe kept making fun of me or something 'cause i wanted to get to the century on time... i was like saying that we should leave by five forty-five so it would give us an hour to get some dinner and make it through all the traffic on the way to the theater... so i kept reminding him when we had to leave, and he would just keep giving me this look, like, you're a dork... well, i guess you had to be there... but yeah... we went through the drive thru at in n out and ate in the car... it was yummy in my tummy... i hadn't had in n out for a while... i just got a hamburger though... 'cause i wasn't too hungry or anything... still got full though... but yeah... traffic wasn't too bad on the way to the movies... not too shabby... ha... we actually got there too early... hee hee... better than being late, right?... right... so we had time to pee... and babe wanted candy... and that's all we were gonna get, but no... he needed something to drink too... silly babe... we just ate, hello!... ha... *i love you, baby =D* ... but yeah... so after that, we still had time to just sit there and chill before the movie started... oh yeah... ha... we watched kill bill volume dos... i must say, it was not as exciting as volume uno... just a lot of explanations of what really happened and blah blah blah... but it was still good... just not as good as the first one... my sister told me it's one whole movie, but they split it into two... so when the second dvd comes out, it's actually going to be the volume one and two put together... so for all of you who bought volume one, ha ha... =P... could've saved some mula... hee hee... but anyways... after the movie we just went back to babe's and chilled in his room... i kinda fell asleep for a little while... woopsies... it's not my fault... he left the room to talk to his papa... =D ... at 12.01 am, i told him HAPPY BIRTHDAY... awww... babe's nineteen now... yay, babe... ha... i already gave him his birthday present... already in his garage... i got him some black rims for his dirt bike... and jeff (babe's brother) had the shop where he works at put them on... yay, babe has black rims!... ha... but yeah, i almost fell asleep again later... we were just both tired and stuff... actually, i think we did fall asleep... but just for a little bit... and i finally left at one thirty... i didn't sleep til like an hour later 'cause when i got home i took a shower... and i started taping conan 'cause BRAD PITT!!! was one of his guests... =D =D =D ... oh that man is sexy... my oh my... the sexiest man alive... and he's forty!... gorgeous... simply gorgeous... ha... but yeah... i finally fell asleep, i think, by two thirty?... oh well... doesn't matter...

so today, i woke up after eight thirty... i washed my face and brushed my teeth and all that good stuff... changed... straightened my hair... called babycakes... and left by nine thirty... that poop was still in his bed when i got there... psh... i told him on the phone to start getting dressed, but did he?... nooooooo... but yeah... he ended up taking a shower real quick 'cause his hair was all funny... ha... his hair's so long now!... for serious... it's like whoa... hee hee... awww... i love my babe =D ... but yeah... when he was all done getting ready, he called in our orders so they'd be ready when we got there (to burger barn)... i love their breakfast burritos... the one with just bacon and eggs and potatoes... oh... my... gosh... it's great... i ordered two 'cause i wanted to save one for later... hee hee... i still have it... i'll prolly eat it tomorrow for breakfast or something... but yeah... plans changed, and i had to take babe to thousand oaks yamaha (where his brother works) by three... 'cause they were gonna leave from there to go to the airport... 'cause they're mama is flying them out to arizona for the weekend for mother's day... =O( ... so our day together was cut short... i mean, it had been planned for a long time now, but it's still sad... the time we did spend together though was great... it's always great... he comes back monday afternoon... i was going to take him back up to s.l.o. tuesday after my circuit training class, but i remembered i had to be studying for my human development final the next day... so i had to tell him today i couldn't =O( ... i wish i could... i haven't been up there in a while... but yeah... he'll prolly end up taking the train back... so i'll drive him to the train station... awww... he just got here... and now he already has to go home... he's done with school in two weeks though... so he'll finally be home... for good... =D =D =D ... i can't wait... then he'll be five minutes away again... instead of two fricken (awww... F*R*I*E*N*D*S =O( ...) hours... but yeah... wow... this is a little bit longer than i thought i would make it... ha... k... the end... oh oh... p.s. i miss you, maxwell... i can't wait to hear from you tonight... I LOVE YOU, babe...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY MAXWELL PRESTON SHAFER!!!... I LOVE YOU BABYCAKES... MMMWAH!... I LOVE YOU...

girly*girls, get your tissues ready... and make sure you're wearing waterproof mascara... we have to be ready for F*R*I*E*N*D*S tonight... oh sh*t... it's the last episode... EVER!... no more, it's thursday!... time for F*R*I*E*N*D*S... it's so sad... but yeah... tonight... at eight... BE THERE!!!... =D

THANKS FOR HELPING ME WITH THIS, LORNA*CACA =D... YOU'LL HAVE TO TEACH ME HOW TO DO IT ON MY OWN ONE OF THESE DAYS... SO YEAH... TONIGHT, WE'RE REVIEWING FOR OUR HUMAN DEVELOPMENT FINAL FOR NEXT WEDNESDAY... HOW EXCITING IS THAT???... HA... AND THEN TOMORROW IS MY CIRCUIT TRAINING TEST THING... NEED TO STUDY FOR THAT... I HOPE IT'S THE SAME AS THE PRE*TEST THING 'CAUSE THEN I COULD JUST MEMORIZE THE ANSWERS AND STUFF... I KNOW I KNOW... HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO LEARN THAT WAY?... WHATEVER, IT'S JUST P.E... BUT YEAH... NEXT TUESDAY IS THE LAST DAY OF THAT CLASS... AWESOME... I SHOULD'VE GONE TO CLASS ALL THE TIME SO I COULD BE ALL TONED UP (HA) FOR SUMMER... OH WELL... ME AND CACA ARE GONNA RUN AT THE BEACH THIS SUMMER... WE'RE GOING TO, LORNA!!!... IT'LL BE FUN... AND THEN MAYBE NEXT SEMESTER I COULD TAKE THAT RUNNING FOR FITNESS CLASS... OR SOMETHING... LA LA LA LA LA LA LA... I FEEL ALL FULL... I SHOULDN'T HAVE EATEN THOSE CHIPS JUST NOW... BLEH... OH WELL... I'LL LIVE... BABE CALLED ME STOUT ONCE UPON A TIME... HE MIGHT AS WELL HAVE CALLED ME FAT... BUT THEN AGAIN, THE LAST TIME HE TOLD ME HE COULD TELL I WAS GAINING WEIGHT, I CRIED... SO MAYBE THAT'S WHY HE DIDN'T JUST STRAIGHT OUT SAY I'M FAT... I MEAN, I DON'T THINK I'M FAT... BUT THERE ARE SOME AREAS THAT COULD BE BETTER... MY SIDES AREN'T AS BAD AS THEY USED TO BE THOUGH... SO THAT'S A PLUS... WELL, ENOUGH ABOUT THAT ISH...

DON'T YOU EVER WISH YOU COULD TURN BACK TIME AND CHANGE SOME OF THE STUPID SH*T YOU'VE DONE?... YEAH... I DO... I MEAN, I DON'T HAVE LIKE A CRAPLOAD OF REGRETS OR ANYTHING... JUST A FEW... IT'S JUST THAT THINGS WOULDN'T BE SO COMPLICATED RIGHT NOW IF I HADN'T DONE WHAT I DID... I F*CKED EVERYTHING UP... NOT JUST WITH BABE, BUT WITH MY FRIENDS... I'M NOT REALLY GONNA BE ABLE TO HANG OUT WITH ALL OF THEM AT THE SAME TIME ANYMORE... AND AFTER LAST NIGHT, I REALIZED I PROBABLY WON'T BE ABLE TO DO ANY OF THE THINGS I THOUGHT I WOULD BE DOING THIS SUMMER WITH THEM... DANCING?... NOPE... OUT TO DINNER?... NOPE... OUR ANNUAL BBQ AT THE BEACH?... YEAH F*CKING RIGHT... ALL BECAUSE OF MY MISTAKE... IF YOU'RE READING THIS, AND YOU KNOW WHAT I'M TALKING ABOUT, I KNOW IT SOUNDS MEAN... TO CALL IT A MISTAKE (BABE, NOT FROM YOUR POINT OF VIEW, OF COURSE)... BUT I DID MESS UP... AND NOW I'M PAYING FOR IT... UGH... MORE ON THIS LATER...

HOW EXCITING... I'M STARTING MY OWN BLOG... HEE HEE...